Once we got the internet and I discovered chatrooms, I thought why not try gay chat rooms and see if I could meet up with someone.
It didn’t take long to find someone and we would chat about the things we’d like to do. We then started to email each other and arranged to meet.
One day I came home late from work after doing some overtime. My wife was asleep but there was a note by the bed. I read it and there was a printed version of the last email I received from this guy describing what he wanted to do to me. Talking about having me on all fours and pulling my boxers down and fucking me.
I was now in total panic! She’s found out! I thought my world had crumbled! I said nothing about it until she brought it up a few days later, saying she knew I had read it. She said she couldn’t see any emails from me so didn’t know what I had said. I told her it was just a joke, that I was setting up my neighbour who had pissed us off. So i was pretending it was him. I’m pretty sure she didn’t buy it but she made out she did, saying she thought she had turned me gay.
So obviously I stopped for a while. Then I found an Internet cafe and at lunchtimes would go there. A guy agreed to meet me nearby in the back of his van but when the day came I just couldn’t do it.
I arranged to meet another guy, when I got there we walked towards his flat then I panicked and ran off.
One day I decided to phone up a local paper and put an ad in to meet up with another guy. I got a big thrill out of saying to the newspaper answerphone that I was a gay guy. It really excited me saying that I was gay. No one answered the ad but I just enjoyed saying about being gay.
By now I started having fantasies of being dominated and being a sub to a very dominating guy who would feminise me.
So then I found chat rooms where I would talk to doms and be in extasy when a dom would say that he would dress me up girly then bring in my wife and say look at your sissy hubby. Then he would say tell your wife the name you prefer to be called then I would say Victoria. Then he would say okay Victoria strip naked then I want you to choose who you’d rather be having sex with for the rest of your life. When you have chosen I want you to go up to that person and kiss them passionately then get down on your knees in front of them. The person you don’t choose will watch as you fulfill your lovers needs fully.
Then my master said so what would you do if I did that? I told him I would go up to you and grab hold of your big hard cock then kiss you passionately before dropping to my knees whilst still looking into your eyes then slowly kiss your cock while looking at my wife and taking it all in until you came in my mouth then over my face. Then I would get you to fuck me in front of her to show her that I belonged to you not her. He then said that’s a good girl. He told me he would reward me with my very own collar that had a tag on it saying property of master Tom which he would get my wife to put on my neck then attach a lead to which she would bring me to him. Then he would fuck her in front of me whilt he showed me how real men fuck their women.
He told me he would throw away all my guy clothes and I would only be allowed to wear girly clothes or be totally naked. The choice was his. I would only answer to Vicki or Victoria. I loved these chats and fantasies.
We moved not long after that, and soon split up. I had found a short skirt of hers and when she was out I would wear it with a T-shirt around the house. It felt really good. I loved it.
I started looking at gay hook up sites but never had the courage to meet up.
One day I visted where we used to live and arranged to meet a guy and went through with it. We went to his house, had a beer. He asked if i did poppers, I didn’t know what they were and said no. Then we went upstairs and he started to kiss my neck. I took my top off and then dropped my jeans and boxers to the floor. He did the same. I could feel his hand on my cock and mine moved onto his. I then for some reason panicked and said I need the bathroom and took my clothes and left.
When my wife moved out I spent a lot of time wearing my skirt and now I had got another baby doll I would sleep in too.
One day I put out the trash still wearing a skirt and top. It was such an exciting thrill. I wanted more.
Not too long later I met another girl and she spent a lot of time at mine. Sometimes she would joke about me being gay and wanting to with a guy. It made me want to be with one while she watched. I started imagining her watching me being naked with another guy and being on my knees while she held my head closer to the guys cock and saying go on my little cock sucker you know you want to, don’t you? I would nod my head and she would say ah I’ve got my own little gay boyfriend. Funnily enough she did call me that once.
One night when she was out with her friends I was still up at 1 in the morning wearing my short skirt. I decided I would put the trash out again still wearing it. It was nice warm summer night so I decided to be more daring and go for a walk wearing it.
Oh my gosh! I loved it! I didn’t want to go home! When I took my trainers off and was walking bare feet in skirt and top it felt so amazing!
I was so disappointed when I got home cos my journey had ended.
To be continued…